To be loved by neither someone you love nor your relatives is such a bitter-sweet thing. It happens out of the blue, leaving me at a loss as to what to do next.

Somehow they start to treat you very well. You can feel it, but you cannot refuse them because they never show their attitudes explicitly. If you ask them about their intentions, they may say otherwise or say you’re thinking too much. Therefore, I have no choice but to accept their nice behaviour, often unwillingly.

Then things start to get out of control. They treat you so sweetly that you feel uneasy and guilty. You never turn them down straight away for you do not want to break their hearts. You try to do what you used to and to make all things seem normal, pretending nothing ever happened. But you can’t.

You feel perturbed because you can’t contain your feelings. What’s more, you are faced with a looming critical exam in your life, which you cannot afford to fail. You are making efforts to pay undivided attention to your study, but those nagging thoughts always creep up back into your mind. In no way can you calm down, though you are aware that is exactly what you should do. Worse still, your grades are plummeting sharply.

It is driving me nuts. I want to be my old self. What should I do? If only I had a pair of magical scissors and cut off the invisible mental tangle!